I have, but pride tells me that would've been a bad idea ... because all my mistakes, doubts and misunderstanding would've been recorded in scripture, most likely in my own words, too ... for all the world to see.
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Imagine if you could go back in time 2000 years, knowing everything you know now, meet Christ and be chosen by him to be a disciple. Could you picture yourself participating back then?
I imagine there's lots of people who'd answer with a loud and enthusiastic "Yes!" ... people who eagerly see themselves walking beside Jesus and being his indispensable & knowledgeable assistant, a second in command taking advantage at every opportunity to usher John, Thomas, Peter and James aside to help clarify Christ's words and confidently explain everything about the gospel that they kept missing.
What's the problem with that?
The problem is that being God, Jesus spoke more clearly, more persuasively and more to the point than you or I could ever imagine. But his disciples still didn't always get it.
Those 12 men weren't chosen because they already knew everything about just how to do synagogue the "right" way, or according to how much scripture they could recite from memory, or because they'd lived perfect lives, or because they'd served in their local temple, and being called as a disciple was Christ's way of rewarding their efforts.
After Christ's ascension, 10 of the 11 remaining disciples were martyred rather than deny their faith. Maybe it doesn't seem like the disciples "got it" as quickly as we think we do today, but after coming face to face with the resurrected King, the disciples permanently "got it" ... in a big, world-changing and permanent way.
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Well, ever thought about moving in time and being an eye witness to Christ, seeing first hand what it'd be like walking with him, hearing his words, spending time in his presence, sharing in his ministry and spreading the gospel? Ever wondered what that would be like?
If you're a believer, think about going to that time ... and about being there right now.
God has raised this Jesus to life, and we are all witnesses of the fact.
-Acts 2:32
